it has been long since i came here. half a year. many things have gone through my mind.
i dont feel like myself anymore. i feel like there is a mask over my face. i m tired.
i m frustrated. i cant handle this situation. i dont know how to react. what should i do?

i m trying my best already. isnt that enough. so tired,so so tired. where are you, the one i trusted, the one i loved. what have i gone through kept playing through my mind. God says there is always care about you. my mom cared, who else bothered.

fuck you dad, where are when i needed you. you only know how to talk.

when can i eat at the round table with grandfather,grandmother? i m trying to find peace of mind. where can i have?

i dont believe it destiny, but its pushing me so hard that i can hardly breath.
so hard to breath. so hard to live. so hard to love.